Without realizing it until last night at about 1:30, while I was staring at my wall and reminiscing, this weekend focused on old friends and I think that's exactly what I needed. I had all intentions of spending Friday night curled up in a ball of confusion with a whole bottle of wine, chocolate cake and FranK Underwood. I haven't hit publish and I can feel like judgement toward my last statement. Lucky for me I stumbled across an old friend to keep my together when I needed it. This friend has been around for absolutely everything. Bad break ups, crazy boys, crazy parties, dangerous class pranking and best of all to listen to every small or large problem or thought I have had. Oh! She's also one of my only real life friends that knows about my blog. The best.
Her new kitty, Kitty. I'm in love with this 1.3lb bundle of curiosity.
Saturday I decided to tell my parents about an idea I had swirling around in my head for my birthday. My Nana passed away two years ago and left me her engagement ring. I have 9 other cousins, 6 of which are girls and I was lucky enough to get the ring. I had been thinking about about replacing the band and perhaps adding a couple stones so I could wear it without it looking like I was getting married. My original thought was to add the gem stone of the month in which they were married, April. That's a diamond, fail. So I pulled out the ring this weekend and noticed something I had obviously been too emotional to see when it was first given to me. It's engraved with my Nana and Papa's initials! I don't know what happened but I dissolved into a puddle on the floor quicker than the wicked witch in rain. It's hard to describe but that was one of the best moments I have had in a long time.
Alright and yesterday. Yesterday there was a competition at my old school. I began the day a little late, parking on the "access road," basically a dirt road across the street, and sprinting into the high school. Pretty much how I began every day my senior year. Seriously so reminiscent. I then saw old friends, old dance teachers and best of all a glimpse into what my life used to be and what I wanted it to be.
I was back at my high school but I was there a completely different person. I'm thinner, my skin is clearer, I'm more confident and most of all I know what I want out of life. I was such a lost soul in high school looking back and it blows my mind to see how many things have changed since. I may not know exactly what I want but I know who I am and that in itself feels like a HUGE accomplishment to me.
What sentimental value that ring has <3
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